Sep 21, 2014

The Lonely Autumn

I give shades of happiness and love to all,
but my emotions wilt like leaves and fall.
The truth of life is hard to define,
to my fate I resign.

I fill hearts with hopes of new beginnings,
and get crumpled beneath feet as forgotten wishes.
Stark realities mark this world,
for it, pain and hurt are just words.


I am the source of lavish splendor,
deep within I am fragile and tender.
No one knows of my agony,
alone I face this harsh reality.

Abundant harvest, fruits I offer,
still nothing ever in my fate alters.
I see them slip moment by moment,
and pray humbly for my atonement.


25 comments:

RMP said...

lovely write. after reading this, I feel an unusual connection to autumn.

Hardi said...

This is so deep and so beautiful!

Hardi said...

Often the person filling others lives with light, ends up feeling empty on the inside

Wendy Bourke said...

We hide our vulnerabilites and pain. I've never quite decided whether that is a good thing or a bad thing. But most mortals, seem inclined to only expose a bit of ourselves to others.

Rose said...

Oh wow, Vandana this is truly beautiful :)

Anita Sabat said...

Moving & tender, Vandana.
Nicely expressed.

Brian Miller said...

i have felt this....recently.....the giving..and yet at the same time feeling the emptying of yourself...and you have to be careful not to run dry....

Stacy M.S. said...

i think that, on the inside, we are all fragile. this poem invoked a brilliant, lonely vulnerability for me. lovely work!

stacy lynn mar
http://warningthestars.blogspot.com/

Grace said...

I admire the contrast of the autumn's abundance with the loneliness inside ~ Too bad no one appreciates your lavish love & happiness ~ We are all fragile and tender inside ~

Mary said...

You have really given Autumn a voice, Vandana, and will think of her voice today when I am out in nature enjoying Autumn's splendor.

Gabriella said...

Beautiful poem, Vandana. I like the generosity and the frailty we see in your words.

Claudia said...

there's beauty in giving to others - giving generous of ourselves - we just have to be careful to be filled again before we run dry

Katie Mia Frederick said...

It's so true that the ones that give the most often receive the less..and i only think that it is human nature to expect those who give so much to have enough...

What they don't realize is it is often those who give the most..where just a thank you..is a blessing above all others..just to know...

someone cares.

Audrey Howitt aka Divalounger said...

Wonderful sense of sitting with pain and moving through it in an honest way--beautifully done!

Kathy Reed said...

You touched on an important aspect of the season...we lose energy, need to save more in our roots, prepare for leaner, colder days, just like autumn...but sometimes it's the squeaky wheel that gets the oil, and some of us don't like to squeak but need to say something to let someone know when something is unfair,,suppose there are tactful, humorous ways to do it...

brudberg said...

Somehow we always imagine autumn as the slayer of the summer, but there is a tender point .. protecting us from the future winter dirge that we tend to miss..

scotthastiepoet said...

I enjoyed the tender humility in this piece Vandana - With Best Wishes Scott www.scotthastie.com

Wolfsrosebud said...

sometimes it is hard to show who we really are... nice capture of those thoughts

kaykuala said...

One lives by the rules as determined by the alMighty Providence! One needs only the solace to be accorded the salvation! Great write Vandana!

Hank

Anonymous said...

Very beautifully written...the contrasts are so profound.

Anonymous said...

Beautifully written....I love the contrasts in this poem.

Glenn Buttkus said...

How wonderful that you have championed Autumn, who needs a patron. Too often I think of Fall as a colorfully painted attractive tart that lures us to her lair, only to slam the door of ice, & force snow on us to slack our thirst. But our metaphor is sterling, & being the victim several times of scam artists, & consciousless con men, I do need to remember that it is the giving, the open heart that trumps the tragedy.

Unknown said...

Such generosity! I wanted to encourage the lead character to give freely to herself. She deserves it.

Vinay Leo R. said...

Beautiful poem. I could relate to the first two verses. Very true sometimes.

Ginny Brannan said...

"crumpled beneath feet as forgotten wishes."
I love the phrasing of this, the allusion to dry leaves underfoot. Lovely capture of the season.